Monday January 10, 2022

Goodnight friends! Hit hard by throbbing icy waves of pain and fatigue as soon as I woke up, in a semi-nightmare haze of confusion and desperate fear that something unknown and awful was suddenly wrong with me, before chilly drops of memory ran gradually down the back of my neck and I recalled that I was in the 21st year, not the first day, of illness. Exercise was on the schedule, so I eventually worked myself up to some reduced and tentative activity, just in hopes of keeping up what momentum I could.

Smothering, sunless charcoal-smear of a sky and intermittent muttering rain, feeling colder than the clammy, enveloping 5°c.

May we find tranquil courage to face challenges and endure disappointments today!