Goodnight friends! A staticky haze of grey incoherent thoughts and sour feelings washed over me today. Worked to pick it apart, with a little success, recognising how much more significant all the surrounding circumstances are – from the drain of paperwork and dealing with the broken boiler to the emotional comedown after having socialised for the first time in years(!) combined with the exhaustion of the effort – than any single incident or interpretation of mine.
Weather still a sweeping muddle of blue and grey, tending more towards grey and damp today. A gravid, though empty, threat of rain thick and mineral on the air. Even today there was the thin, lonely trill of summer’s last lonely grasshoppers, and hairy tare putting out a few tiny hopeful flowers.
May we find a sense of self-mastery and internal equilibrium today!
