Goodnight friends! A pale and heavily clouded day mostly, though with scattered tremulous blue banners raised briefly over the day. I regretted missing each of them, taking along time to feel awake, but luck was on my side. One last gusty, clear cold interlude coincided with sunset, and the sky blazed broadly with parting curtains of rose red fire.
Lingering weight of deep nerveless exhaustion dragging down on me. Once I’ve firmly established my comfort zone for a while it can be difficult to articulate to myself how important those careful limits are to my health, how small my range of stability can be, until I’m pushed beyond it for a few days. Just a few house viewings in the same week have left me with a lasting scraped-raw feeling inside, as well as the inchoate grief that comes from a vague sense of recovery being brushed away.
May we find deeper self-knowledge and growth beyond old illusions today!
