Goodnight friends! A brief, cautious venture into town for a bit of socialising today after a lateral flow test, first time seeing anyone for a few months and the last before christmas. The sky sodden and pale grey, vague mistiness of thin rain hanging in the air, blurring festive lights into dripping, fizzing aureoles as dark descended.
A little of that deeply held knotted up tension and grief of the past two years – so stiff and immobile that I hardly notice it most days – shifted and loosened, a strange relief that leaves me feeling both more alive, and more full of the barely acknowledged loss than ever.
May we find a sense of determined thoughtfulness and care today to work incrementally and patiently for a better future!
